Believe

It has not been a Caramilk secret that I've been struggling in many ways for the past year. I'm feeling more pressure than ever to succeed and grab my dreams and pull them into this realm. I need it. I command it. I deeply feel it in my gut as a pure necessity in my life.

But the dark voices of pure self-doubt are calling upon the ogres of negativity and false reality to crush me and bake my bones into bread. I'm wrestling with moments where I feel all my writing is a fraud and dreams are too far-fetched.

I've also been sapped of energy most days due to some haunting mental and emotional health issues triggered by a struggling career and many issues that sprouted from that. I'm seeking medical and professional help, but the state of care means I likely have months of waiting ahead.

It means that I have to resolve some of these challenges on my own. since my career and bills aren't just going to stay on hold. Sometimes., that is overwhelming and daunting.

But you know what?

I once thought I was destined to be single my whole life.

I once thought I was too irresponsible to be a good dad.

I once thought I was too dumb to attend university.

I once thought my podcast would last a few months at best and never be able to draw an audience.

I once thought I'd never get a publisher to accept my writing.

I once thought no one was reading or enjoying my work.

I once thought that I was a decent cabin leader but could never run the program of a summer camp.

I once thought that I could never do things around the house in a successful way.

I now have a beautiful, smart, and amazing wife.

I now am a damn good dad.

I now can say that I was at the top of my class in all my university courses.

I now have co-hosted The Movie Breakdown since 2013.

I now have written for numerous publications and websites.

I now have many emails and comments from people saying they love my writing and look forward to it.

I now can put on my resume that for several years I was a Summer Camp Program Coordinator with a glowing recommendation letter from the Summer Camp Director.

I now often take care of issues like our phone line or technical problems and I resolve them.

So. . . 

I can publish a bestseller.

I can attract a million readers.

I can attract a million listeners.

I can launch a successful YouTube channel.

I can make a high six-figure living off my writing.

I can create writing that matters, enriches, entertains and nourishes.

I can.

And so can you.

What are your dreams that you know you will attain and excel in?

Believe.